Oh Poo

Dear Readers,
Don't trust guys. Most of them will hurt you, lie to you, make you cry even though you feel like you love them. And deep down when you're loving them, your dying inside from all the hate in the room. Hate that you just want to punch something, scream at the top of your lungs, beg God for a better life and to have happiness always. Have a better family and more friends, have a caring boyfriend that will hold you when you're angry or sad or crying. One that will be there no matter how close or how far, how sad or happy, he is. One that you can trust to show up if you end up in the ER because you tried killing yourself and STILL say "I love you".
Dear Readers,
There is no one you can trust, no one you can love, and believe that they will be there for you forever and always.
I can't believe in love, when it does not exhist in my world. I thought I have loved but all I have is lost. So get your butt on that highway and just drive. Drive till your car runs out of gas. Drive until your today turns into tomorrow. Believe that time is not always on your side but it is slow enough to find what you are looking for.
What am I looking for?
I am looking for me. I am looking for the perfect HIM. I am looking for a better tomorrow that will make today seem priceless. I am looking for my knight and shining armor type guy who will sweep me off my feet. I am LOOKING. Looking is the first step of believing. Believing will help you FIND what you were LOOKING for. I am looking for that beautiful sunset, that one where he will find me. That night no one will ever forget. Where my skin will glow with happiness and my smile will be cheerful.
But I forgot.
There is no such thing as love.
That dream will never come.
He will never come.
I am alone.
~Kelly