Better Days

Dear Mr. Him,
I love the way you looked at me from across the room. I loved how you would whisper in your friends ear asking about me. I love how your friend talks to my friend. I love how they put us together like peanut butter and jelly. We met and everything is perfect. You tell me I'm beautiful as I come out in my evening dress. You tell me you have a surprise for me, as your walking me to your car. You open the door for me and I see you bought me roses. You say there is more to come and I can't help but smile. Our first date is going so well.
We pull into an empty lot and you blind fold me. I get a little worried but excited all the same. You start driving again, just around the block. "Where are we going?" I ask. You say, "It's a surprise!" You park and I hear you get out of your car. I am fumbling around trying to find the door handle when the door suddenly opens. I feel you take my hand and kiss me on the cheek. We start going up some stairs and I think that is an elevator. Where are we? I think. He tells me to watch my step just as the tip of my toe hits something hard. He says there is a couple more steps and were nearly there. We go up the stairs and he lets go of my hand. I feel him kiss my neck just as he takes off my blind fold.
I gasp as soon as I see what I'm looking at. Were on a roof of a building with a beautiful view. Lots of sparkling lights with the stars shining above. A table in the middle and a waiter. Yes! An actual waiter. He pulls my chair out and gestures for me to sit. I do and he goes around and sits across from me. The waiter puts a tray down in front of me and lifts the lid and it was pasta! Mmmmmm my favorite! Fettochini Alfredo! We pass through that meal and he asks for me to dance and just as I am about to say "there is no music" beautiful classical music starts playing as a man with a violin comes out to view.
We start dancing as I rest my head on his shoulder. He smells good, John Varvetos maybe? His warmth draws me in and I don't want to let him go and I realize I don't even know who I am dancing with. What does he look like? I never noticed. I pull away to look at his face, into those eyes I'm sure are soft and warm and welcoming. He is gone now and I wake up.
I always wake up. I can never see the man who makes my dreams come true. But at least I have something to look forward to, for this dream shall repeat itself the moment I fall asleep tonight. I will look forward to details, paying attention, and looking for the man in my dreams, for he will be waiting with roses in hand with that smile. That smile that just draws me in. Makes me smile just thinking of him. Whoever HE is. I already know I love him and miss him already for being awake only 2 hours.
Good morning world, for I am in love with the man in my dreams.

Oh Poo

Dear Readers,
Don't trust guys. Most of them will hurt you, lie to you, make you cry even though you feel like you love them. And deep down when you're loving them, your dying inside from all the hate in the room. Hate that you just want to punch something, scream at the top of your lungs, beg God for a better life and to have happiness always. Have a better family and more friends, have a caring boyfriend that will hold you when you're angry or sad or crying. One that will be there no matter how close or how far, how sad or happy, he is. One that you can trust to show up if you end up in the ER because you tried killing yourself and STILL say "I love you".
Dear Readers,
There is no one you can trust, no one you can love, and believe that they will be there for you forever and always.
I can't believe in love, when it does not exhist in my world. I thought I have loved but all I have is lost. So get your butt on that highway and just drive. Drive till your car runs out of gas. Drive until your today turns into tomorrow. Believe that time is not always on your side but it is slow enough to find what you are looking for.
What am I looking for?
I am looking for me. I am looking for the perfect HIM. I am looking for a better tomorrow that will make today seem priceless. I am looking for my knight and shining armor type guy who will sweep me off my feet. I am LOOKING. Looking is the first step of believing. Believing will help you FIND what you were LOOKING for. I am looking for that beautiful sunset, that one where he will find me. That night no one will ever forget. Where my skin will glow with happiness and my smile will be cheerful.
But I forgot.
There is no such thing as love.
That dream will never come.
He will never come.
I am alone.
~Kelly

Dear World

This has probably been the worst week of this month. First someone gets a hold of my debit card information and makes a 139 dollar purchase in Belize City South America. So now I don't have any money in fact I am negative 105 dollars. Then I end up running out of gas to where I had to borrow my mom's car. Then my phone got turned off so I had to borrow money from my dad to get it turned back on. But of course when I picked up my tip share from work my mom made me pay a 107 dollar bill well there goes all my money. So I still don't have money, well I do...but 30 of it went to my gas tank so now i have 20 dollars in my bank account. Well then I find out all my friends are leaving me for when they go back to school. I am covered in bug bites I have a wart on my finger from God knows what and the new hard wood flooring in our house puts little rocks in the heals of my feet. OUCH! Oh and then on top of alllllll of that, John tells me he doesn't want to be in a relationship with me...but he doesn't tell ME this. Oh no he tells my friend and she tells me.
Now time for my positives: I'm going to be picking up enough shifts to almost work 40hours...every 2 weeks. What a life!
Oh! And on top of all that negative stuff...my friend put my car in the ditch which costed me 45 dollars to get it pulled out of the ditch but of course if my mom hadnt have cancelled my AAA card, I would still have that 45 dollars in my pocket.
I'm scared world. I'm scared that I will never get a good career and make good money and find a good husband that isn't an alcoholic or a druggy and we will have a nice beautiful fall wedding where I wear my red wedding gown and have an amazing life together and have a kid or two. Oh wait...that is a fantasy. It will never happen to me. Why do I have to live like this and hope for the best when there are better things out there for me? Oh yeah. Because I don't have the right training or the right education or I have no experience or enough money to work at a place that will support me.
I dream too much. Hopefully someone will come along and sweep me off my feet and probably make things a little easier on me :( good night world

Time Flies

Because I guess that the last time I wrote on this thing was forever ago. Oh well I am writing now. So John was complaining about how i blogged about him and so I figured I wasnt going to talk about him this time...but me saying I'm not going to talk about him is talking to him but what ever I guess we're not dating so what ever.
So I think that I am going to go skinny dipping with Katelyn some time. I don't know. I think I am gonna have the time of my life before it all just ends. Mom and I are talking about Chris Angel possibly being anti christ. It is nearly impossible from what he does I mean really?? I don't know why I am still blogging. Blogging seems pointless no one is there no one reads this it's all just the same. It's the story of my life no one there for me no one listening to me no one hearing me when something started going on and all of a sudden it all just goes down hill. I'm babbling again...
For who ever is out there listening, I thank you. For those who are out there laughing at me, screw you!

New life, new day

Today was a bad day, as were the last 32 days. Since I turned 18 I have not been having the best of luck having the time of my life. I thought I was gonna get drunk and go to a strip club and have the most fun ever and get a new car and have the most amazing boyfriend and get to move out and do whatever I wanted without my parents to stop me. I was WRONG!!! With a capital RRR!!! I guess what I am trying to say is: DON'T EVER TURN 18!!! It will be the biggest mistake you will ever make.
I miss John I really do. I wonder if he misses me too. I think about him day and night and I usually end up crying myself to sleep. I wish I had never told him I wanted a break. That was probably the dumbest thing I have ever done. I miss how he used to hold me and kiss me and I miss how him and I could just talk. Talk about everything. My life, my parents, the problems I have been having, I miss talking about us. US. I love that word. Us. It makes me feel, special inside. I really miss him and I would say that inside, I really do feel like I love him. I miss it. I miss HIM. Well, I think I am going to go to bed, or maybe just get on Facebook and hope that he is online. Bye ~Kelly

Moving out

Today is the day I talked to a couple people to find a place to live. I thought about apartments which is good. I thought about staying home and living with my parents and that part just scared the shit out of me. I thought about going to college and staying in their apartments and that is just too much money. Now I am thinking about moving in with my friend Katie. Problems with that include the fact that my parents already don't trust me, my parents don't like my friend, and I don't know what her mom's house rules are. If it means that I can't drink, or can't hang out with my boyfriend all the time, or absolutely hold a job, than it might not work out. I need my alcohol to cope because for one: if I don't get my alcohol, then I might just pick up smoking. For two, if I don't get to see my boyfriend on a regular basis than that is just going to start a whole hell of a lot of problems.
Sorry. I'm back. My friend Josh just got back from Chicago. He had a blast while I'm here crying my eyes out and wishing I was an alcoholic or a druggie. I wish I could just disappear for a while and come back out rich and famous for the work I never did. My aunt told me marry rich and don't care if he is cheating on you. Thing is, I am independent. I like to do things myself. But when it comes to relationships I want a guy to be there by my side and hold me when I'm in situations like this. I want a guy who will call me every morning just to tell me he loved me and then marry me and be with me forever. Divorces happen. I'm sure I'll go through at least 3. Guys just don't get along with me. I do as they please and get nothing out of it. :( I wish my teddy bear could talk to me and tell me what I should do. It would be so much more helpful. I think I am going to read after I finish with this.
I wish I was still in high school so I could still have someone to talk to. My teachers were always there for me and now, here I am stuck in my bedroom wishing I could just come out and say, "Will someone help me through this because I think if I keep living this way it'll kill me!" I used to think about what would happen if I could just swerve into the other lane going 60 and see if I could die, just to see what death was like. Sorry for anyone who has a problem with what I have just said but it is completely true. I do think of killing myself every once in a while. Those thoughts have gone down majorly now that someone is with me but I feel like if I talk to him about how I feel right now he will just leave me which means that the thoughts will come down on me even more.
There is a fly in my room and it is bugging the fuck out of me. I want to be out and about but I guess I have to stay here and do absolutely nothing. Life is so fucking gay! I never thought that being 18 would suck so much. I'm just ready to get out. I'm scared to express my feelings right now on the computer because some people might know my boyfriend so I'll just keep my feelings to myself. I just wish him and I could have a chance to talk :( This is so dumb right now that I don't even think it's funny anymore. The situation I'm in makes me feel like I can never keep a fucking relationship for more than 4 months. I think it would be better off for him to just dump me because what is the point. If we continue to date while he is at camp than yeah we would have dated for 4 months but technically he wasn't here or I wasn't there so we really weren't actually dating you know? I wish I had the ability to tell him that I don't want him to leave me but then I don't want to be the one to ruin his chances of having an amazing summer, even if it means ruining mine.
My mom is fighting with me again. At least this time it's over text messages. I don't like it when people yell at me to my face. I really need to go to the chiropractor because my back is killing me. I need to get a matress for my bed but why do they have to be so expensive?? I wish I had something going on this summer so I didn't have to think about John so much. My God. Why can't I get him out of my mind?? He is all I ever think about and I really don't understand why. This really hasn't happened to me since the first time I dated Tyler K. My shoulders are so tense right now. I need a back rub but like I can ever get anything around here.
Well, I guess I'm going to go to bed. So good night :))) :((( still sad

Fuck my Life...or just help me through it

I used to think that turning 18 would be the most amazing feeling. Move out, have a whole bunch of friends to get drunk with every night, and to go to bed around 5 in the morning every night. WRONG!!! Well, actually let me put it this way: VERY WRONG!!!! That was the only thought I ever had that was soooo majorly messed up. My Goodness you know if I could just get married and have kids now I'd be totally set. P.S. Sorry Ty Ty for scaring you with that part. LOL.
I used to want to adopt a chinese little girl and bring her back to the U.S. but I believe that will never happen. I used to dream that I would be a rock star and a mama by now but I had those dreams when I was 7 so don't blame me. I wish people actually read this thing so I could be telling someone about myself, although I am quite boring! It would be nice to be married though. That dream is still on the top of my list. I have a red wedding dress but I told John that and the first thing he said was, "NO! You are not going to have a red dress at our wedding!" I hope he realized that he said, "OUR".
My brother stopped talking to me. My older sister talks nonsense to me so I just ignore her now. I don't know my 2 other little sisters Meranda and Alexandria well enough seeing as to how I have seen them once since I was 11. 7 years ago and I still can't get them to like me. My other little sister Bridget used to be my best friend. She was smart, funny, pretty cool(she would do everything I told her to even if it would get her into trouble). But now she acts like she is 2, she is quite annoying so I can't stand being around her now, and all she ever wants to do is play on her god damn fuckin computer. I don't really get along with my other sister Brooke. I just think she's mean all the time beating up her friends and fighting with me all the time. Then there is Wren. She is 5 years old and can barely talk because my real mom won't give time to teach her how.
So yeah. 2 days ago I turned 18 as you already know. We had a little bonfire, I had my friend and my boyfriend over but even if he didn't realize it my best friend pissed me off so fuckin bad on the car ride back home. Sorry to everyone who was at my party that I made mad. I wish I could just go back and try everything over again. If I could, I would have been able to graduate early. If I would have been able to pass all my classes at North Linn and Washington, then I might have been able to graduate 2 terms early! :D Oh well. I still graduated.
I had posted on my facebook that I was having the worst fuckin 18th birthday ever and as I have mentioned above it was because of my friend. Well my mom saw that when she got online the day after and she started blaming it all on herself so I took off. NOTE: I had made that comment during the time that my friend was flirting with my bf. So of course I was having a horrible day :( But anywho...She decided to fight with me so I left and then my dad called to try to work everything out with me. I told him that if mom would stop fighting with me then I would come home but if she would start fighting with me again this week I wasn't going to. He told me she wasn't going to fight with me so I went home at 2.
She started fighting with me today. Actually she started bitching at EVERYONE today. I think she's on her period. WOW! I don't even get that pissy when I'm on my period. I wish she had a happy button that I could just push so that she would just stop bitching for once. Because of her I started looking for apartments. I just want to get out and stay with my boyfriend but she keeps making me stay home. He is leaving in half a week :( crap I'm crying now.
I guess I have to go because I'm getting tears all over my laptop. I will write soon. Keep reading all. :( bye...and don't ever make your 18th birthday the worst. Go out and party don't stay home unless your mom is your bestest friend in the whole entire world. Yeah right :( my mom just doesn't know when to stop :/ Bye.

Graduating and my 18th Birthday

This morning was the worst. I woke up feeling as if it was another day. Last night I hung out with my boyfriend got home around 11:30 and hung out with my mom until I could open my birthday present. She kept telling me, "It'll take the blonde out of the blonde." and my sister kept saying, "It will get you here." and turns out they got me a GPS. Thank God because getting lost is not always as much fun as it seems LOL.
This morning I woke up, grabbed a bowl of cereal without the milk (takes too long to eat), a can of root beer, and started getting dressed. Opened the can of root beer took a sip and as I was taking that very long sip, I realized I am now an adult and I graduate high school today!!! LIKE OMG!!! So I ended up having a minor panic attack while choking on my drink. I blacked out, fell down in my room very hard(thank goodness I didn't hit my head on anything) and when I started coming back to the real world to the point I could see, I ran upstairs and told mom, nearly passing out while doing so. My chest still hurts. But anyways. I managed to look very sexy I might add for only having 15 minutes to get ready. I'm wearing my very lovely black shirt that every girl in my government class loves, my miley cyrus shirt under that, my uber skinny skinny jeans that are so tight it seems like I just painted them on, and I am wearing my 70 dollar gorgeous black heals that I have been dying to wear somewhere.
For the graduation ceremony, however, I am planning on wearing something blue so I can wear my 170 dollar Chicago blue shoes! AMAZING ZIP UP HEALS THAT GO AROUND YOUR ANKLES!!! Just what should I wear? I want to wear heals but I don't want to trip and fall flat on my face and die. LOL soooo embarassing! Maybe I can wear the same jeans I am wearing now but find a shirt that will match the shoe color or just wear something black with my matching blue jewelry. But I do have this really pretty night gown that I wear as a dress. Kind of the same color. They go good together but you know, I need to iron it so bad. I want to look fantabulous! I could wear the jeans and the dress because the dress is a bit short but then would I look like a layer wearer? I only do that with shirts that show off too much cleavage. I'll ask my mom how I look and if I should change.
Well, I should go. I want to write a thank you letter to my teachers. :D bye!

Amazing weekend

I have had the most AMAZING weekend ever! So, Friday was my bestest friends graduation party! CONGRATS Katelyn :D and her graduation party was so cool. I got to see people I haven't seen in two years which was cool. Then her after party which is a bonfire was fun too even if she doesn't remember anything it was amazing lol. My boyfriend came down from des moines after graduating his freshman year at college. Pretty cool I know. But he didn't warn me that his summer job is all the way up in Okoboji which lasts for 15 weeks. :((( So much for having the best summer ever. Now I am trying to spend as much time with him as I can because he is leaving in a week and a half. WOW I hate long distance relationships.
On the bright side however, me and my bestie are going to try to find an apartment this week. She is going to Kirkwood but she works in Coggon. So we are probably going to try to find a place in either Marion or Cedar Rapids. Which ever one makes her more comfortable. I would rather pick somewhere close to school. But it should be fun. I love her. We've been best friends since 7th grade. I asked her if her boyfriend was moving in with us and how many bedrooms we would need. She said only 2 bedrooms but we could share one if we need to but she also said her boyfriend is not going to move in and that it is a girls place.
It is really hard to find an apartment right now when the friend you are moving in with won't help at all.
Going to see John tonight :D EXCITED! bye

Graduation and...STUFF

So, *big pause*, everything is getting really odd. I feel like I am gaining a whole bunch of weight but really I'm losing some. I guess it is just because I barely fit in my prom dress. I really do need to lose some weight. Especially because water ski too. OH WELL :D
But anyways, graduation is coming up in 23 days. :O I FEEL OLD!!! 23 days...well yeah that's right. What pisses me off though and I have probably already mentioned this, is that graduation day is on my birthday!!! What a great birthday gift right?? Yet again oh well. My mom told my grandpa that he has to get my two presents instead of his cheap butt one present two events kinda thing...if that makes any sense!? So in meaning if it didn't make any, it means this: he has to buy me a present for my graduation and a present for my birthday which means 1 event + 1 event = 2 presents.
Right now I am in my journalism class trying to get mom to send me the poem my grandpa wrote. I signed up for Americorps if I have not yet told anyone. I think it is going to be a great and amazing experience! The one I really wanted to do was for June in Cedar Rapids for flood recovery. It would have been nice but the application has not yet been looked at and the application process ends today. I probably didn't make it in. :( I should have signed up earlier. But I HAVE signed up for six other opportunities all around the United States.
So I have this secret. I still really like my ex boyfriend(as usual) but I'm scared that all he will do is hurt me. I'm scared that if I get back together with him he's just going to be immature and stupid. He says he has a job working out on the farm but I say that is just a chore. When I lived on a farm I had to do chores outside all the time. Why won't he just work and get a real job and what not?? Like seriously boy you are majorly addicted to guitar center so why the hecky decky can't you work there?? GET A JOB! CUT YOUR HAIR!! GROW UP!!!!!
Man I am really getting sick for some reason. I don't know what is going on whether it is just all the Gatorade I'm drinking or if I am actually getting a cold or a flu or a dangerous virus! I wish I would just get better because this whole not being able to breathe out of my nose thing is getting on my nerves! AND WORSE!!!
Well, I have to get back to class and start working so I will write some other day. BYE

WISH I WAS HOME!!!

So right now I am in my yearbook, I mean Journalism, class and my eye really hurts. I wish I could go home and get my glasses because it feels like my eye is about to get infected. Prom...is in 2 weeks as I said. I went and got my dress thank God, well actually thank my mom, but the thing is...I barely fit in it. I need to lose at least 3 pounds to be able to fit in it. :( Oh well, I am going to have fun I hope. :))) Hmmm...So I don't exactly know what I should talk about but what ever. Hope to God I will be able to lose weight in 2 weeks...I am quite addicted to chocolate chip cookies as everyone in my family already knows.
Today I have been playing with stereograms which hurts my eyes but is really cool. I was the only one who was able to see the images which makes me feel special...special ed. But I have to go because I am supposed to be productive in this class so I will talk to you later. BYE!!!

School...boring

So right now I am sitting in my yearbook class doing absolutely nothing. Mother if you are reading this I just lied. I still have no prom dress so what the heck am I supposed to do? Katelyn told me that she would ask her boyfriend if I could use his cousins dress but I doubt she will say yes. I hope she does. Prom is in 2 weeks so if I accidentally said this week pardon my lie. It is currently 12:04 and I get out of school at 12:30 pretty much. So far today I got zero sleep, I am wearing 2 left eye contacts, I had to get bloodwork done because apparently I have something wrong with my liver. If my blood is still bad I have to skip prom and go to the hospital for a liver transplant. Oh well. Well anyways back to my day. I got to school around 9:00 and ended up parking as far away from the school as friggin possible which pissed me off. I still can't bend my left arm from getting my blood sucked out. After school I have a dentist appointment at 1 which only gives me half an hour to get in my car, leave Metro, and get all the way down to Blairs Ferry Road weaving in and out of traffic so it's like, "What the fuck am I supposed to do? Be late for my appointment? OK fine with me I'm just getting cavities filled or however you spell those thingies!" Well then after the dentist, however long that is going to take, I have Job Orientaion at Lone Star Steakhouse that is a mile away from my house. Yup, I love life. Oh, I got a hair cut yesterday and got my hair bleeched. You can barely tell with the color but I specificly told the lady cutting my hair to only cut an inch off the back and she fuckin cut 3! PISSES ME OFF!!! I am never going to cost cutters ever again! Well, 10 more minutes before school gets out I guess. I wish I had a job like right now. :( Well, I will ttyl to whom ever is reading any of these posts. Bye, shout out to Tyler Kubik who just randomly started talking to me agian...I wish he would just understand. BYE!!!

Boring ol' weekends

I'm sitting on my bed talking to my ex boyfriend...shout out for Tyler Kubik! Yearbook class is going very well, sitting on the computer making peoples poems all pretty and such. I'm sure I'm going to pass that class...and every other one I am in. Right now I am in government, perspectives, geometry(which is one class where I help tutor other students), IJAG which is just a class where the teachers help you find a job, which reminds me, I GOT A JOB! It's just at LoneStar but whatever you know, just a job no biggy. But then there is yearbook. Hardest class of the day. With the help of reading books and taking tours I am going to graduate this year. BOO YA!!! Well, Tyler went to bed so now, I have no idea what I should do. I could sleep but I need a dress for prom like majorly! Well, that was my post! I think I am going to surf the internet and find a dress just in case one of my friends, little miss Courtney to the rescue, cannot let me use her dress! Gotta order the flowers tomorrow :) bye

Fuck it

I have absolutely nothing to say.
Good night every body

School and Summer

So I just found out recently that I am going to be GRADUATING in May. BOO YAH!!! So much better than graduating in November. But I just have to make sure that I get all my credits done so that I can actually graduate. Oh...I'm not going to prom anymore people. Both my dates ditched me. Well actually I ditched cowboy because he has Herpes and I don't like being around that kind of stuff. And my other date ditched me because I didn't want to date him at that moment but oh well. Guys like that are usually ASS HOLES!!! GOOD BYE LOSER!!! I didn't want to go with him anyhow.
Summer is coming along now if only it would be here right now. If you don't already know I am on the Five Seasons Water Ski Team. That will hopefully take up a lot of my time. I applied at the Field House and if you don't already know, it is taking the place of the Tilted Kilt which was my last job. It sucks that the Tilted Kilt shut down but I won't feel so bad if Field House actually hires me.
My new boyfriend is really sweet. I am not, however, going to tell you how old he is because he is younger than me. I am going to be trying to keep this relationship for a long time but I am quite sad that he might actually dump me before November. If he does than he really isn't worth it. Well nighty night. I am going to bed. It was nice to talk to you Laura. Good Night America!!! Have a good life.

Crushed

Sometimes when I look at life I wonder why I have so many problems with boys. Yes believe it or not I say BOYS!!! I am starting to believe they are all the same.

Boys, Toys, and Creativity

I'm starting to like this guy. His name is Tyler and he's really cool. Sometimes he's all I can ever think about :D I really hope that we start dating. I got a new puzzle yesterday. 5000 pieces but it's really easy. I'm already half-way done...with help from my mom. Well, I am about to go to bed but before I do I'm going to tell you about my day.
First, I went to school of course, it was very boring! But when I got back home my mom, dad, and I started watching movies. I really wanted Tyler to call but he never did. But he did text me saying that he was really tired and that he wanted to talk to me but he had too much homework and now all he wants is to just go to bed. I don't blame him.
Well, obviously I have no followers except one so I don't know if I should even continue my blog. I'll think about what I want to do tomorrow morning when I'm not so busy. TTYL and good night!

Flipped My Coin

You could say that yesterday, I flipped my coin. I decided who I am going to go to prom with and I get to hang out with him on Valentines Day :D. I'd like to give a shout out to my friend Sheely and Travis for always being there for me and I'd like to give a shout out to my ... friend ... Katelyn for getting me into this situation. Thank You.
So yesterday I woke up, went to school at 8 and came home at 11 20. When I got home I pretty much watched TV all day. Yesterday was the first time that people ever called me that much! First I kept getting this unknown caller but turns out it was my friend Quin's friend. I don't even know who it was but he wouldn't leave me alone! He kept saying that he didn't know me but he really liked me and I was like what the hell! So then about around 6 in the evening, a credit card salesman called me and I wanted to throw my phone! Why were people blowing up my phone?! But then I got a special call from my friend Tyler D.
He called me and we started talking for a long time. like the first call was 50 minutes but then I had to go upstairs and tell my sister to turn off the bathtub and that I couldn't hear myself think. So then I called him back and we talked for an hour and 10 minutes but then he accidentally hung up on me but he called me back. We ended up talking on the phone for 3 n a half hours last night. I finally just let him go to bed before he fell asleep on me.
What is it with Tyler's' being so talkative? My second boyfriend Tyler K. would always call me 24/7 but around that time I was used to talking on the phone. He and I would talk for hours and hours at a time and half the time we weren't even talking. I guess it's just something in the water. I kinda really miss Tyler K. I mean I really want to hang out with him but he just changed so much. I want my old Tyler back but I don't know where he went!
So anyways, I kinda want to date Tyler D. but the problem with that is Katelyn wants to date him too which means I prolly won't get to. She's always been a flirt and she always gets the guys but for once I want it to be my turn! I AM GOING TO PROM WITH TYLER D.!!! ... I hope.
Well, I better go because I'm still in school so TTYL shoot me up a comment

Dream Come True

As of yesterday I have a date for prom and his name is...well, lets just call him cowboy. LOL I've been so disappointed and confused about boys stupidity(don't take that offensivly) and prom. Surprisingly I am really happy about yesterday but I also have a problem. Like I said, I have never been invited to prom but I think I asked for too much. My Facebook status for the past 3 days was "need a prom date. any takers?" and that is when cowboy asked me. The problem I was talking about was that he is not the only one who asked me to prom yesterday. My friend Tyler D. asked me to prom also. Now I'm really confused!! What happens if their proms are all on the same day?! My mom told me to just flip a coin but I'm not like that! So right now I am sitting in school debating on what I did was right or wrong...and I don't even know what wrong I did!
I tossed and turned all night thinking about who I'm going with. All the thoughts that raced through my head kept me up until 3 in the morning! Well, it was either that or it was the Mt. Dew I had just before I layed down to rest. But other than that, the fact that I got two guys to ask me to prom really surprises me and it makes me smile! :D I really have not been this happy since last years summer! Which means that something good happened. Well, I am in digital photography class and I'm supposed to vote on something. TTYL and thank you for listening. Bye! (p.s. if you want any more pictures of me just shoot me a comment!)

My Jobless Wonders and All My Rumors

So today I found out that I have lost my job. Today the Tilted Kilt is now closed...or well I guess it was yesterday but whatever! LOL so now I am making a list of all the restaurants I could possibly work at. I'm hoping that the Outback will hire me because I really like that place. But if not I could possibly always work somewhere like Applebee's or Perkins or IHOP but who knows. Oh the wonders life can bring.
So anyways I was on Facebook and I had my ex-boyfriends little sister comment on my status that said "need a date for prom. any takers" and she said "who would ever take a person that fakes pregnancy to prom?!" All I was thinking was BITCH!!! PLEASE!!! (sorry for all the little ears that just read my post) She had no right to accuse me of faking a pregnancy. I mean really seriously I'm 17 years old, never been pregnant, and in other words...I'm very safe. (I take precautions when it comes to my body and when I come from a school that 75% of the students have an STI I'm not about to get one either....if that made any sense)This is the present day! A whole bunch of people who are stupid not to practice safe sex is bound to get an STI sooner or later...and I choose later!!! Don't listen to her. I Kelly Lynn have never been pregnant nore will I until i turn 26! I promised myself that years ago.
I guess what I was trying to say in that last paragraph was don't listen to rumors...more than likely they will be false like how mine was. I'm just trying to figure out who started that rumor and I want to know who they think the baby daddy would have been!!! Really I haven't engaged in sexual activity for a year now. But listen to whatever you want about me right now because really I don't care but just be careful. Rumors do get you into a lot of trouble whether it's true or it's just a lie.
Well, I guess I better go out and find a job. Any places you know are hiring just hit me up! :D ttyl everyone who's watching and reading!!! I'll get back to y'all tomorrow on how things go! BYE!!!

Prom Dates

It's clear that no matter how much, how dearly, I wish to go to prom, it will never happen for me. I'm Kelly. I'm a 17 year old girl from Iowa that has one dream. I want to go to prom. I thought it was possible, I really, truly thought that I was actually going to prom today and it all started with a phone call. I was in my room just laying on my bed and my friend calls. I pick up the phone and we start talking but what I didn't know was that she was sitting in my driveway as we spoke. I hear a beep beep of a car but I didn't know it was her so I said to her OMG I just heard the funniest wimpy car horn ever and she just started laughing and said "I know, right?!" and I thought oh great she's here! So I go upstairs and meet her outside and she said "How 'bout you 'nd I go prom shopping!" I said, "OMG!!! Your actually taking me to prom?!" She said yes but we go and get her dress and I told her that we should go to the mall for mine she says okay. We get to the mall and shes talking with one of her boy toys on the phone. At that moment I knew she wasn't going to take me to prom. Well, she has a date to prom. She went every year and me? Nope. I've never even been asked to prom before except by my ex-boyfriend Tyler but I don't want to go with him until he learns to grow up. Which means I am never going to ever, never ever ever believe it or not EVER, go to prom. Which sucks. I never thought I was pretty but I know for a fact I'm not ugly. How is it that a girl like me can never get a date for prom?! I guess it's because I'm not the kind of person people want to be around. I'm quiet, shy, and it's really hard for me to make good friends. My closest friends are my phone and my computer because I can trust that they will never leave me...unless of course my phone gets stolen or my computer gets a virus and dies. But right now that's very unlikely. Well, comment please...and if you live in Iowa, your a guy, and your uber hott, please invite me so I can finally go to prom before I head off to college. :( Please and thank you if you do :D