I used to think that turning 18 would be the most amazing feeling. Move out, have a whole bunch of friends to get drunk with every night, and to go to bed around 5 in the morning every night. WRONG!!! Well, actually let me put it this way: VERY WRONG!!!! That was the only thought I ever had that was soooo majorly messed up. My Goodness you know if I could just get married and have kids now I'd be totally set. P.S. Sorry Ty Ty for scaring you with that part. LOL.
I used to want to adopt a chinese little girl and bring her back to the U.S. but I believe that will never happen. I used to dream that I would be a rock star and a mama by now but I had those dreams when I was 7 so don't blame me. I wish people actually read this thing so I could be telling someone about myself, although I am quite boring! It would be nice to be married though. That dream is still on the top of my list. I have a red wedding dress but I told John that and the first thing he said was, "NO! You are not going to have a red dress at our wedding!" I hope he realized that he said, "OUR".
My brother stopped talking to me. My older sister talks nonsense to me so I just ignore her now. I don't know my 2 other little sisters Meranda and Alexandria well enough seeing as to how I have seen them once since I was 11. 7 years ago and I still can't get them to like me. My other little sister Bridget used to be my best friend. She was smart, funny, pretty cool(she would do everything I told her to even if it would get her into trouble). But now she acts like she is 2, she is quite annoying so I can't stand being around her now, and all she ever wants to do is play on her god damn fuckin computer. I don't really get along with my other sister Brooke. I just think she's mean all the time beating up her friends and fighting with me all the time. Then there is Wren. She is 5 years old and can barely talk because my real mom won't give time to teach her how.
So yeah. 2 days ago I turned 18 as you already know. We had a little bonfire, I had my friend and my boyfriend over but even if he didn't realize it my best friend pissed me off so fuckin bad on the car ride back home. Sorry to everyone who was at my party that I made mad. I wish I could just go back and try everything over again. If I could, I would have been able to graduate early. If I would have been able to pass all my classes at North Linn and Washington, then I might have been able to graduate 2 terms early! :D Oh well. I still graduated.
I had posted on my facebook that I was having the worst fuckin 18th birthday ever and as I have mentioned above it was because of my friend. Well my mom saw that when she got online the day after and she started blaming it all on herself so I took off. NOTE: I had made that comment during the time that my friend was flirting with my bf. So of course I was having a horrible day :( But anywho...She decided to fight with me so I left and then my dad called to try to work everything out with me. I told him that if mom would stop fighting with me then I would come home but if she would start fighting with me again this week I wasn't going to. He told me she wasn't going to fight with me so I went home at 2.
She started fighting with me today. Actually she started bitching at EVERYONE today. I think she's on her period. WOW! I don't even get that pissy when I'm on my period. I wish she had a happy button that I could just push so that she would just stop bitching for once. Because of her I started looking for apartments. I just want to get out and stay with my boyfriend but she keeps making me stay home. He is leaving in half a week :( crap I'm crying now.
I guess I have to go because I'm getting tears all over my laptop. I will write soon. Keep reading all. :( bye...and don't ever make your 18th birthday the worst. Go out and party don't stay home unless your mom is your bestest friend in the whole entire world. Yeah right :( my mom just doesn't know when to stop :/ Bye.
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