Graduation and...STUFF

So, *big pause*, everything is getting really odd. I feel like I am gaining a whole bunch of weight but really I'm losing some. I guess it is just because I barely fit in my prom dress. I really do need to lose some weight. Especially because water ski too. OH WELL :D
But anyways, graduation is coming up in 23 days. :O I FEEL OLD!!! 23 days...well yeah that's right. What pisses me off though and I have probably already mentioned this, is that graduation day is on my birthday!!! What a great birthday gift right?? Yet again oh well. My mom told my grandpa that he has to get my two presents instead of his cheap butt one present two events kinda thing...if that makes any sense!? So in meaning if it didn't make any, it means this: he has to buy me a present for my graduation and a present for my birthday which means 1 event + 1 event = 2 presents.
Right now I am in my journalism class trying to get mom to send me the poem my grandpa wrote. I signed up for Americorps if I have not yet told anyone. I think it is going to be a great and amazing experience! The one I really wanted to do was for June in Cedar Rapids for flood recovery. It would have been nice but the application has not yet been looked at and the application process ends today. I probably didn't make it in. :( I should have signed up earlier. But I HAVE signed up for six other opportunities all around the United States.
So I have this secret. I still really like my ex boyfriend(as usual) but I'm scared that all he will do is hurt me. I'm scared that if I get back together with him he's just going to be immature and stupid. He says he has a job working out on the farm but I say that is just a chore. When I lived on a farm I had to do chores outside all the time. Why won't he just work and get a real job and what not?? Like seriously boy you are majorly addicted to guitar center so why the hecky decky can't you work there?? GET A JOB! CUT YOUR HAIR!! GROW UP!!!!!
Man I am really getting sick for some reason. I don't know what is going on whether it is just all the Gatorade I'm drinking or if I am actually getting a cold or a flu or a dangerous virus! I wish I would just get better because this whole not being able to breathe out of my nose thing is getting on my nerves! AND WORSE!!!
Well, I have to get back to class and start working so I will write some other day. BYE